哦，他来了。 He's coming
那我们开始吧。 Let's do it
看着我，保罗。站高点，跪下来…… Look at me, Paul. Stand tall. Brittle, edgy...
斗牛士是懂得死亡…恐怖的，也懂得焦虑…… A matador understands death... terror. A little anxiety...
克拉拉，往下看，有点顺从的味道。 Clara, look down, be a bit submissive
可也别太多呀! Not too much!
对这个男人有点小小的顺从…… A bit submissive to the man...
三下哈，你们都先看着我，一切尽在你们的目光里。 At three, you look at me. It's all in the look
三下，踮起脚尖，都看着我。 At three, rise up, on your toes, and look at me
一……二…… One... Two...
三！超级棒! Three! Excellent!
你以为这对我来说很容易吗? You think this is easy for me?
你又以为我喜欢看着你不开心吗? You think I enjoy seeing you unhappy?
我告诉过你，我总是这样的， I told you, I'm always like this
和任何女孩最多只能维持一个星期，然后六个月内没有任何激情了。 With other girls it lasted a week, then for six months we did nothing
真的吗? Really?
可我和你在一起，已经持续了三个月了。 With you, it's lasted three months
我们日夜在一起，做爱至今…… It's all we've done, night and day...
你太夸大了 Don't overdo it
我们从来没有整晚做过 We never did it all night
来吧……那就让我们一次又一次呗， Come on... We made love over and over
我可没这么想。 I don't think so
事实上…… In fact...
我们根本就没做爱过。 We never made love at all
无论如何吧…… Anyway...
我可以欺骗你，但是你不能欺骗我。 I can cheat on you. But you can't
如果你不愿意和我做的，那就别指望对别的女孩能硬起来。 No getting a hard-on for another girl, if you don't for me
你对我不忠了吗? Have you cheated on me?
没有。 No
你走运， 你还没令我放弃性爱。 You're lucky. You won't make me give up sex
我还没有对你不忠 ， 但我真应该对你如此。 I haven't cheated on you, but I should have
你这是什么意思? What does that mean?
看着我！你已经有过了，对吗? Look at me! Have you ever?
绝对没有! Absolutely not!
这就是我太笨的地方! That's how stupid I am!
你不值得我对你忠诚。 You don't deserve my loyalty
你知道你为什么喜欢喝酒吗? You know why you drink?
这样我们睡觉的时候你就可以装死了。 So you can pass out whenever we get to bed
你只有在我们之间隔着一张桌子的时候，才会爱我。 You only love me when there's a table between us
其实自我们认识之后，我们每晚都在一起。 Since we met, we've been together every night
而且你每晚都坐我对面，我乐此不疲。 You sit opposite me every night. And I'm never bored
可就像我说的， Like I said,
你只喜欢隔着一张桌子的我。 you like me when there's a table between us
真是疯了 ， 睡在我身边的男人， It's insane! I sleep with a guy
居然不碰我！你从来不碰我! who doesn't touch me! You never touch me!
-- 我们谈过的，-- 可你答应过我要做点什么的。 - We talked about that - You promised you'd do something!
-- 等等嘛！-- 等到世界末日吗? - Just wait! - Until the end of the world?
你还得等一等! You have to wait!
也许再过三个月吧！生活中还有许多更有意义的东西! Maybe three more months! There's more to life than that!
你干什么？要分手吗? What are you doing? You going?
不。 No
这不重要。 It doesn't matter
不，很重要。 Yes, it does
无以言状的沉重， An invisible weight,
重重的，重重的，压在我身上， heavy, leaden, descends on me
这感觉不断地在我耳边唠叨… A constant nagging...
脱了你的上衣， Take off your T-shirt
我不想老抱着一堆布料睡觉，我讨厌它。 I don't want to sleep with a sack of cotton, I hate cotton
不，你脱了衣服，上来睡吧。 No. Get undressed and come to bed
你为什么不脱下来? Why won't you take it off?
你知道我讨厌它的，为什么要拿它们闷住我的脸? You know I hate it. Why rub my face in it?
我会脱掉上衣，但不会除掉短裤。 I'll take the shirt off, but not my shorts
我的蛋蛋需要温暖。 They keep my balls warm
这和你无关， It's nothing to do with you
我只是没想到我们每晚都会在一起。 I never thought we'd be together every night
现实如此， That's how it is
只能是我的错。 It's my fault too
我原以为你 --- I thought you'd have
除了每晚见我外，还应该有其他的事要做。 other things to do than see me every night
如果我们分开两个星期……活着一个月… We'd be apart for two weeks... a month...
你就会消失的。 You'd let me disappear
不 No
我们不能不见面…… Not without staying in touch...
除非你或我不在巴黎。 Not if you're in Paris when I am
你不相信我吗? You don't trust me?
我走。 I'll go
你想的，我可以走。 If you want, I'll leave
你也就再不会见到我了。 You'll never see me again
明白我的意思了吗? See what I mean?
我们都不能好好说话了。 We can't even talk
上来睡吧。 Come to bed
脱了衣服。 Take it off
我说了，这无关你事。 I said it's nothing to do with you
我一直这样睡觉的。 I've always slept like this
就是关我的事! It's everything to do with me!
我让你恶心了吗？！ It's because I disgust you
不！ Don't!
别这样，只会越弄越糟的。 I told you never to try that. You'll only make things worse
但你鸡巴很硬! But you're hard!
别了，否则我们就玩完了。 Stop it, or we're finished
你完全可以的！ It means you can
我没兴趣。 I'm not interested
好啊，你到底怎么了? Be nice. What's wrong with you?
如果你不能勃起，我还能理解。 If you couldn't get it up, I'd understand
可你强行停止，就在我… You've decided to stop making love, just when I...
干什么！你要我杀了我自己吗? Watch out! You want me to kill myself?
我从来没和其他男人这样做过，我从没碰过它们，从来没有! I've never done this with anyone. I never touched them! Never!
这对你一定很重要吧，你总要喋喋不休这个吗？！ It must be important to you. You never shut up about it
所以是你不想，你不能吗？我不懂。 So you don't want to, you can't? I don't get it
那就帮我手淫吧。如果你不想要快乐的，那就给我快乐吧! Touch me. If you can't get any pleasure, give me some!
女人比男人更容易兴奋。 Women can come more often than men
如果我那样做了，我会鄙视你的。我就再也不会爱你了。 If I did that, I'd despise you. I couldn't love you any more
你鄙视我，只是因为我是女人吧。 You despise me because I'm a woman
你根本就不爱我! You don't love me at all!
我讨厌你， I disgust you,
我让你恶心。 I make you sick
你觉得我是最脏的， You think I'm the dirtiest
别这样。 Stop it
来吧。 Come here
为什么我就只能爱他或者恨他? Why can I only love him or hate him?
为什么我就不能有另外的选择? Why can't I feel indifferent?
但是我的头脑还是清醒的 But my head is clear
一个不能在身体上爱我的男人 A man who can't love me physically
对我是致命的！ is a pit of misfortune,
是最痛苦的深渊 an abyss of suffering
人们常说男人和女人做爱，是对女人的尊敬 They say that a man who screws a woman, honours her
是在向女人证明他的诚真 The expression is worth noting: it's true
保罗侮辱了我 Paul insults me
不介意一起吗? Do you mind?
没事 Not at all
临睡前过来放松一下? Here for a nightcap?
不呢，我刚起床 I just got up
这是真的，我刚穿好衣服就来这了 It's true. I just got dressed
我睡不着，所以不想浪费时间 I can't stand sleeping, so I got up
我不在乎该死的白天夜晚，我从不累 I don't give a damn about time, I'm never tired
我也讨厌那些他妈的假装很累，给自己找一堆借口的人 I hate people who fake tiredness, to make endless excuses
你呢? You agree?
这是因为他们之间缺乏激情！ It's because they lack passion
你一个人住? You live alone?
不，我结婚了 No, I'm married
我告诉他我有丈夫了 I told him I had a husband...
这样他就知道我不是自由人 So he'd know I wasn't free
因为我没空 Because I'm not free
他必须明白这是婚外情了 He has to understand it's adultery
他睡着了，啥也打扰不了他了! He's asleep. Sleeping doesn't bother him at all!
他明天得早起 He has to get up early tomorrow
中午在多维尔有个商务约会 A business appointment in Deauville at noon
你呢？有女朋友吗? And you? You've got a girlfriend?
不， 她在车祸中死了 She died in a car crash
我已经四个月没做爱了 I haven't made love in four months
也许所有的男人都喜欢做爱吧 Maybe all men are like that
我丈夫人很好，但他对性不感兴趣 My husband's nice, but he's not interested in sex
第一步我觉得很满意 The first moves are what I like best
太有味道了 It's delicious
我无法控制自己 I can never stop myself yielding
可每次都给我惊喜 It surprises me each time
我看着自己一点点的让步，屈服，仿佛那不是我 I watch myself giving in as if it wasn't me
可坦白了说… It's true...
我想再尝试一次奇迹的滋味 I wanted another taste of the miracle:
和一个陌生人做爱 a stranger making love to you
这是一种幼稚的渴望 It's a childish longing...
. . 也是纯真的欲望 a pure desire...
帮我口交吧 Suck me
不行，现在不要 No. Not now
晚点时间吧，或者明天 Maybe later, or tomorrow
把你电话号码给我 Give me your phone number
你不想吗？ You don't want to?
给你吹箫吗？不想 To blow you? Not really
老实说这个我不擅长 It's not my speciality
我也不喜欢从这个开始， I don't like to start with that,
我宁愿要真正的，我想你明白我的意思 I'd rather start again that way, if you see what I mean
但是要去酒店，我喜欢在那里做爱 But going to a hotel, I'm dying to do that
现在我得立马走了 Now I have to go, right away
-- 你不想去酒店吗？ -- 当然去呀，但我还得工作呢 - You don't want to go to a hotel? - Of course, but I'm working
还先得把车还回去 And I have to return the car
这不是我的车 It's not mine
你会给我电话吗？ You'll call me?
对不起，俺迟到了 Sorry I'm late
没事，我先走了。 Don't worry. I took the register
早上好 Good morning
我们继续学习语法， 请拿出书本 Take out your grammar books,
标写下今天的日期 and write today's date
上周我们学习动词的现在时态 “to be”” Last week, we did the present tense of the verb "to be"
如 “I am, you are, he is...” "I am, you are, he is,
"we are, you are, they are"
今天我们学习 “to have”” Today, we'll do "to have"
“to have””跟 “ to be” 不一样 "To have" isn't like "to be"
其 “be””没有 “having”” One can "be" without "having"
而 “have””没有 “being” And one can "have" without "being"
我已经做过了 I've been had
我真的已经做过了 I've really been had...
我希望你怀孕了 I wish you were pregnant
那不可能的! No chance of that!
为什么？这是可能发生的呀 Why? It could happen
可能吗？天哪！？你在开玩笑吧！ How? By the Holy Ghost? You're kidding!
除非我停药，否则没机会的 There's been no chance, ever since I came off the pill
我知道你讨厌讲细节，但确实选对日子很重要的 I know you hate details, but dates matter
如果你从未这样认真对待过，而且从不选合适的日子， 那就不可能有结果！ If you hardly ever do it, and never on the right days, it won't happen
而这就是让我倍感沮丧的地方 That's what depresses me
不是这样的 That's different
如果你选定了最合适的时间段，我一定配合你 If you say it's a duty call, no problem
-- 真的吗？ -- 那当然 - Really? - Yes
那样一切都会改变的 That would change everything
我们只要有了孩子，生命就有了意义 If we had a child, it would make sense to be together
那是因为你没信心好吧 It's because you've lost faith
一切都会好的。 It'll come back
这就像有些神话里说的那样 It's like the Circean myth
你太关注前因后果 You want to know what lies ahead, what lies behind
你甚至对现实-- You won't allow the present to unfold
太过焦虑…… You force things...
一旦不如意，你心理就崩溃了 You've lost faith, and everything collapses
假设我离开你一段时间? What if I left?
两周，或一个月，没电话? And didn't phone for two weeks or a month?
甚至 -- 半年? Six months?
我们会咋样了，玩完了吗? Would we be through?
得要看情况…… That depends...
如果你去了北极，或者沙漠那些人迹罕见之地，也许没啥…… If you went to the North Pole, or to a desert, maybe...
但如果你每次看到手机都在心里说 But if every time you see a phone and say
"我才懒得给那个傻娘们打电话呢" "I won't call that dumb bitch",
再或者你老在我家附近酒吧晃悠---， and hang out in every bar in my neighborhood,
那我得说我们就此没缘分了 I'd say we'd have broken up
呵呵，我谈论自由，你谈论酒吧 --- I talk of freedom, you talk of bars
这就是概率统计好不？！ It's statistics
男人们需要同朋友一起，在酒吧里重塑世界，否则他就死定了 A guy needs to remake the world with his pals in a bar, or he dies
你知道我永远不会欺骗你的， You know I don't cheat on you
也许我宁愿你是欺骗过我的，而且你还摧残了我 Maybe I'd rather you did, and also screwed me
总之吧，只许我欺骗你，你不能欺骗我。 Anyway, I can cheat on you, but you can't on me
是否你已经欺骗过我了？所以你老这样说。 You've already done it? You talk about it a lot
没有 No
但你一定是这么想过了 But you deserve to think I have
好吧 OK
明天晚上，我要和艾希礼一起吃饭 Tomorrow night, I'm eating with Ashley
你可以来，但你知道其实我更想--- You can come, but you know what I'd prefer
我不去，对吧？ That I didn't come
我知道我应该给他空间 I know I should give him space
但我就是要像水蛭一样要紧紧缠着他 But I need to cling to him like a leech
因为我疯狂地爱着他 Because I'm madly in love with him
他的呼吸都令我窒息 What he calls breathing suffocates me
我从未要求自由 I never asked to be free
我也不想给他自由 And I don't want him to be
我不相信可能， 只相信绝对 I insist on absolutes
我坚信我是对的 And I think I'm right
但在实际生活中时， But when I apply them to life,
我却经常崩溃了，精神分裂。 I fall to pieces. Schizo
他跳舞，是想诱惑 He dances because he wants to seduce
他诱惑，因为要征服 He wants to seduce because he wants to conquer
他要征服，因为他是一个男人 He wants to conquer because he's a man
你要干吗嘛? What is it now?
你这么不高兴是因为我和其他女孩跳舞吗? You pull this shit because I dance with some girl?
那那是什么女孩，是荡妇! Not some girl, a slut!
谁他妈的在乎她们? Who gives a fuck about her?
那就他妈的别在乎! Then don't give a fuck!
我不会和男人生孩子的 I won't have a kid with anyone else
我真的要戴上这个吗? I really have to wear one?
我都六个月没做过爱了，我也没艾滋病之类的 I haven't screwed in six months, I don't have AIDS
你越来越棒了 You're getting better
你很喜欢这个，对吧？ You seem to enjoy it
你快如意了! You're almost triumphant!
你想让我看着你戴上套吧 You want me to watch you slip on your condom
可一开始你是躲着我的 At first you hid
-- 你这么想？ -- 我知道自己的… - Think so? - I do...
我以前不敢看，我不喜欢看着鸡巴 I didn't dare look. I don't like looking at cocks
一旦有点冲动了，它们就会坚挺呢-- Once they've been used, they're revolting
不是太漂亮吧 Not very pretty
它们很恶心的 They are rather disgusting
就像女人的卫生巾一样。你还得小心翼翼地取出来，生怕坏事。 It's like a Tampax. To screw, you take it out discretely,
一开始还得把它藏在床底下，免得男人们看到了觉得败兴呢 hide it under the bed so the guy's not turned off
男人真的很容易情绪化 Guys are easily disgusted
到最后，你还要回收它们 Later, you have to get it back
我很喜欢恶心的东西了 I quite like disgusting things
知道为什么大多数男人不戴套吗? Know why most guys can't use a condom?
因为他们的鸡巴不够硬 Their cocks aren't hard enough
就好像，一块橡皮擦吧… It's as if, the rubber...
越擦越少！ rubs them out!
这我不知道了，我可不跟男人上床 I wouldn't know. I don't sleep with guys
真的，大部分时间他们总是软弱无力 It's true. They go limp all the time
因为… Because...
他们并不是真的很坚挺--- they're not really horny
和在色情电影里看到的不一样 Just like in porn films
女孩们也只能把软软的鸡巴含进嘴里 Girls stuff limp cocks into their mouths
她们经常是被迫给男人口交，其实内心压根不想 They have to give blow jobs because they're not really desired
男人应该直面女孩 A guy should take you without a word
绝不应该 but he shouldn't
用他自己的无能来折磨女孩 burden you with his inadequacy
有时候口交也不错呀 Sometimes a blow job is fine
是的，可以。 It's OK
男人本可以操你，却不愿做 When the guy could fuck you, but won't
这对女人来说就是一种折磨 It's the torture of Tantalus
不得不承认， It forces you to admit
你别无选择…… you can do that...
哪怕更糟糕…… or even worse...
但只要男人愿和你上床就行了。 as long as he ends up fucking you
大多数男人的鸡巴 Most guys have cocks
又短又细又尖 that are short, thin, pointed
是吗? Pointed?
对，就像狗的鸡巴。 Like a dog's cock
我讨厌那些款的，长度才不重要呢 I hate that. Length isn't everything
够粗才重要 （小姐姐呀，你错了，硬度才是王道哟！） Width matters more
鸡巴太小真所谓无耻了！ A thin cock's ignoble
你想让我插你屁眼吗? You want it up the ass?
还不要 Not yet
死命操我吧，我受够了， Screw me some more, I haven't had enough
我男友从不操我的 My boyfriend doesn't fuck me
那你怎么能爱上一个不和你做爱的人? How can you love a guy who doesn't fuck you?
我不喜欢那些搞我的人，我讨厌他们 I don't love the guys who screw me. I hate them
我也不想看着那些男人在搞我， I don't want to see the men who screw me
甚至直视他们 Or look at them
我只想成为一个洞，一个深深的洞。 I want to be a hole, a pit
洞儿越大越深，爽劲就越足！ The more it gapes, the more obscene it is,
能让我越来越沉迷这爽劲的， the more it's me, my intimate part,
我越知足，越渴望，就越愿意放低我的自尊 the more I surrender
我这算奇思幻想吗 It's metaphysical
男人给我足够的性爱，我会为之迷恋 I disappear in proportion to the cock taking me
直至把自己掏空 I hollow myself
这是我最简单的纯洁吧。 That's my purity
你喜欢有人给你背部挠痒痒吗? You like your back being tickled?
不喜欢，太温柔了 No, I don't like tenderness
我也不喜欢亲吻-- Or to be kissed on the mouth. I couldn't stand that
哪怕给我口交 -- I don't care who fills my cunt
我就是不能吻我不爱的人。 But I can't kiss someone I don't love
这是很私密的 It's too intimate
但是我吻过保罗，我感觉很好 But I kissed Paolo, I felt like it
可当我现在吻他的时候，我没有想到保罗--- When I kissed him, I stopped thinking about Paul
所以我决定我不能再见他了 So I decided to stop seeing him
这是一个诚实性的问题 It was a question of integrity
你在干什么? What are you doing?
没啥，我有一堂课 Nothing. I have a class
你喜欢我的小弟弟吗? You like my cock?
嗯，它的味道很好 I like its smell
你好恶心呢 You're disgusting
没有啊，闻起来很香嘛 No, it smells good
我喜欢你的小弟弟不大不小 I like it that it's not too big
完全匹配我的手，还适合我的嘴 It fits in my hand, and fits in my mouth
你为什么喜欢它呀? Why do you like it?
因为它是我的专属吧 It's mine
我也不知道 I don't know
它就像一只鸟儿 It's like a bird
感觉我手里擎着一只待飞的雏儿 Feels like I've got a bird in my hand
你看，当你这样那样移动的时候， You see, when you move like that,
它就好像要飞走了 it's as if it wanted to fly away
但其实这只是触动的感觉。 But it doesn't. That's touching
你介意吗？我们可能最终走不完全程? You mind that we don't go all the way?
我在意的是你老不让我碰你 What I mind is you won't let me touch you
我真的很反感这点 I really resent that
我让你碰，但不是一直让你碰。 I do let you touch me. But not all the way
行了，我也懒得碰了! Don't worry, I don't come either!
听写 Dictation
“冬天” "Winter Months"
“每个人都有曾 "Everyone had
“过着 "settled for
“一种无聊的生活 "a life that was dull
“但非常有序”。 "and orderly."
句号 Full stop
“然而 "Then
“突然”, "suddenly,"
逗号 Comma
“一道光 "light
“在前方突然照亮 "burst forth
“又再一次” "once again"
句号 Full stop
“春 "Spring
“它来了!” "had come!"
感叹号 Exclamation mark
我知道，我的书写很糟糕 I know, my spelling is awful
我也不知道我怎么通过教学考试的 How did I pass my teaching exams?
还有我如何拿到驾照的? Or get my driver's license?
我不会平行停车 I can't parallel park
没那么严重吧 That's not so serious
我并排停车的时候你不能跟在我后面! You're not behind me when I'm double-parked!
我想我是……… I think I'm dis... lex...
我的词汇-- dis... lexic
就像我数学一样，我逻辑性很好， It's like with maths, my reasoning was fine,
但我不会背乘法表 but I couldn't learn multiplication tables
这是个问题呢。 That's a problem
真是个好地方! Nice place!
你觉得惊喜吗? Surprises you?
麻雀虽小，五脏俱全 It's small, but there's nothing missing
女人们想看看她们在电视上的样子 Women want to see what they've seen on TV
日本的滑动屏幕很畅销，我这里就有的 Sliding Japanese screens are in, so that's what I have
按摩浴缸也很新潮，所以我也整了一个 Jacuzzis are in, so I've got one
地方虽小，该有的都有了，类似剧院里的， For a small place, it has everything: like a theatre
像一个可以彩排的舞台。 It's like a stage where I can rehearse
我样子不帅， 但人格高尚， I'm a classy bum who's not handsome,
我接触过近一万多名女性。 yet I've had over 10,000 women
为什么是我? Why me?
因为你得跟她们谈谈 Because you have to talk to them
没人愿意和女人说话了 Nobody bothers to talk to women anymore
我说，他们听着，她们就在我的手掌心中。 I talk, they listen, they're in the palm of my hand
然后我把手放在合适的地方…… Then I put my hand in the right place...
不需要询问的，…就像这样 without asking... So it goes
总得有人把事情办起来 Somebody has to get things going
被女人爱的唯一方法…… The only way to be loved by women...
是通过强奸。 is through rape
女人容易屈服于陌生人， Women yield easily to a stranger,
但是却喜欢和爱着她们的坏蛋男人们玩欲擒故纵的游戏， but play hard-to-get with a wretch who loves them,
尽管这些男人们会为她们而死，并发着誓地尊重她们--- who'd die for them, and swears he respects them
实情就是如此！ So it goes
但是女人想要被尊重吗? But do they want to be respected?
从某种意义上说，是的 In a sense, yes
但尊重本是事物的本质。 But respect is in the nature of things:
既然她们是待价而沽，那本质上她们就渴望被人占有。 since they're up for grabs, they want to be taken
我接触了超过一万个女人，我都不记得她们都是谁了， I've had 10,000 women, I don't remember them all,
但我记录了她们的名字、年龄和诸如此类 --- but I kept their names, their age and the circumstances
女人的阴部…… Women's cunts...
没有两个是完全一样的 No two are alike
它们就像人的面孔一样令人难忘！但以十个男人为例， They're as memorable as faces. But take ten men,
假如割下他们的鸡鸡，放在同一个篮子里， 没有人能认出他自己的！ cut off their cocks, put them in a basket: no one can tell his own!
我过去在广播上播出的东西， I was on the radio
他们想要统计整理出一些东西 --- They wanted proof of my statistics
是的，的确啊 Yes, indeed
他们最后统计出来， They counted them
我，威尔博士，一位精神病学家和性学家， Dr. Weil, a psychiatrist and sexologist,
一个真正的花花公子，一个超级唐璜 knows a true Casanova, a super Don Juan,
诱惑者中的王子… a prince among seducers...
为什么叫我诱惑者王子呢？这是极其荒谬的。 Why does she call me a prince of seducers? It's absurd
我从没勾引过任何人，任何女人 I never seduced anyone, any woman
我知道我貌不惊人 I know I'm not very handsome,
甚至可能遭人厌恶， I may even be revolting,
但事实是， but the fact is,
我接待了1万名女性，几乎每天几个 I've had 10,000 women, several per day
从这个诱惑她们交流的意义上来说，我是一个大情人 I've been a seducer in the sense of se aductere:
自我吸引，这就是诱惑 to draw to one's self. To seduce
对，诱惑，自我吸引！ Se aductere: to draw to one's self
我们检查了他 We checked him out
他记录了他的征服记录 He kept a record of his conquests...
我有你会感兴趣的一点东西 I've got something that will interest you
我买了它，我知道会有一天我会让你看到的 I bought it, knowing some day I'd make you read it
在这了--- Here it is
给我读读这句话吧 Read me this sentence
男人不该借书给别人，女人天生就是应该给我们读书的 One shouldn't lend books: women should read to us,
这点大家都已经明白了 so we know they've paid attention
我讨厌读书。 I hate reading
读读吧，女人天生读书给我们听的 Read it. Women must read to us
“母亲生儿子，儿子也生母亲。 "As the Mother begets the Son, the Son begets the Mother
“他的行为是整个过程的创造， "His act is the creative counterpoint of the whole process
“在生下母亲时，他净化了她 "In begetting the Mother, he purifies her
“他净化了她，也净化了他自己 "He purifies her and himself, uno acto
"他将巴比伦的妓女变成了处女。" "He turns the Whore of Babylon into a Virgin"
你让我感觉很害羞，我是怎么了? You're making me shy. What's come over me?
但你就是那个… Yet you're the one who...
不，不，我很好。 No. I'm fine
你明白了吗? You see?
我不明白 I don't see anything
你装的。 You're play-acting
我做我自己 I'm being myself
这种不安-- This kind of embarrassment...
太过自然了 Completely natural
…真的是欲望吗 ...is really desire
还是只是游戏的一部分… It's part of the game...
居然对于他们的动手动脚都不记得说话了， to forget words when they start to act
不应该很自然地回应“住手””的吗？！ otherwise it's too easy to tell them: "Hands off!"
这就是事实， That's what this is,
微不足道， a trivial relationship,
近乎可耻 a very shameful one
为什么那些我们厌恶的男人， Why do men who disgust us
却比我们所爱的男人更了解我们? understand us better than the ones we love?
你的教育明显有漏洞 There's a hole in your education
虽然你自己也是老师 yet you're a teacher
是的，一个洞 Yes, a hole
这里 There
你很惊讶我在摸你的阴部 You're amazed that I'm fingering your pussy
居然是我在做 but it's me doing it
我还没有兴奋呢 I'm not aroused yet,
但你有些小激动了，你还很惊讶居然是我 but you are: you're amazed it's me
是的 So it goes
美女被野兽占有了 Beautiful women are taken by ugly men
这是一个不为人知的秘密 That's a well-kept secret
得有些其他花样了， There has to be action,
不是男女之间的那种，那太简单了 and the action isn't between man and woman, that's too simple
它应该是在美丑之间！ It's between beauty and ugliness
美以堕落为食，与堕落共存 Beauty feeds on degradation, communes with it
而这就是我的用武之地，我大快朵颐 That's where I come in. I feast on it
就是这样的。 So it goes
别怪我哟！ Don't blame me
你想让我主导你吗? You'd like me to dominate you?
睁开眼 Open your eyes
要我堵住你的嘴吗? Shall I gag you?
这意味着我们要走得更远--- It implies going further
也许超出了正常女人的心理接受。 than it's reasonable for a woman to accept
超出一点心理预期其实本无所谓， She may have to go beyond what she agreed to
你不会去渴望得到你平时不愿接受的东西。 You don't yearn for what you can't accept
肉体的爱…… Physical love...
--- 和圣洁的爱并无冲突。 is the trivial clashing with the divine
真奇怪呢 It's strange
女人可不会因为淫秽而困扰 Obscenity doesn't bother women
疼吗? Does it hurt?
解开吧 Take it off
我受不了了…… I can't stand it...
哦，我没想到…… I didn't realize...
你应该直说的，我还以为我们能玩得更远呢。 You should've told me. I thought we could go a long way
我可以把你绑得轻一点 I can tie you up less severely
或者我们就以正常方式做爱 Or we can make love normally
我没事。 I'm OK
只是我…… It's me...
问题是…… The problem is...
你知道吗 You know
从来没有人把我绑起来过 Nobody ever tied me up before
我从来没做过这些 I've never done it
真的吗？从来没有过? Really? Never?
我一直想这样做的 I always wanted to
那我们再来一次，这次我绑得轻点--- We'll resume. I won't tie you so tightly
不了 No
这样就挺好了 It's fine
不需要了---- There's no other way
真的吗？你真的喜欢？ Really? Was it good for you too?
这样很美， 真的很完美 For me it was very beautiful, truly beautiful
我想让你开心的。可你一哭，我就慌了 I want to give you pleasure. When you cry, I panic
我想我肯定哪里做错了 I feel I've done something wrong
不，没关系的 No, it's fine
首先…… At first...
我的手开始麻木了…… you feel your hands going numb...
我觉得自己能忍受…… you think you can stand it...
可突然间就无法忍受了…… then suddenly it's unbearable...
这真的好像一种死亡的方式…… A way of dying...
而且是加速死亡… a galloping death...
我觉得自己的手一点一点的不属于我的了… You think your hands will fall off...
好像我也会慢慢地变成一具死尸…… you turn slowly into dead flesh...
然后 and then
我一秒钟也顶不住了 it has to stop at once, it can't last a second more
我还担心你感受不到我心里的呐喊呢 I was afraid you couldn't hear because of the gag
这太奇怪了 It's really strange
但你喜欢这样吗? But you liked the gag?
别让我说了，好吗…… I don't like having to say things...
当我回到家时，保罗不在。 When I got home, Paul wasn't there
这更让我的世界分崩离析 That caused my world to fall apart
并非由于刚才之我所作为 It has nothing to do with what I did
既然都已经做过了，就不去多想了。 What's done is done. It's behind me
我的头脑这会很清醒 My head is very clear
这是我唯一能仰仗的了 It's all I can count on
是的，我的大脑 My head
我的身体感觉上它已不属于我了 My body feels like it doesn't belong to me
只是一个匿名的附件罢了 It's an appendage, anonymous
在我的脑海里，有着保罗 In my head, there's Paul
他本可以让我和我的身体和解的 He could have reconciled me with my body
但是他并不想那样做 But he didn't want to do that
因为不喜欢我自己的身体 Because I didn't like my body
我太容易被捕获 I was easy prey
成为受害者 A victim
可女人不就是男人为赎罪而牺牲的受害者吗？！ Women are the victims men sacrifice in expiation
我总是紧合着腿手淫 I always masturbate with my legs closed,
我很少叉开腿 I rarely part them
我可以把自己奉献给自己， I can offer myself to myself,
强奸自己吧 rape myself
它有点舒心， It's mildly satisfying,
可也有点恶心 a bit nauseating,
如果我长期求助于这个的，那就证明我并不需要男人 but it's proof I don't need a man if I have to resort to this
躺在他的床上于我而言何其痛苦 It was painful for me to be on his bed
我感觉自己像一件被丢弃的行李 I felt like a piece of lost luggage
时间过得越久，我越忍受不了 The more time went by, the less I could bear it
我不得不把自己扔到街上，就像一具残骸，垃圾！ I had to cast myself out on the streets like a wreck
是的，随便人都可以捡走的垃圾 Like a wreck, belonging to anyone
我能告诉自己的，就是不停地走极端， The only thing I told myself, like a two-bit equation,
我对他不忠，我会后悔 was that if I'd cheated on him,
仍然只爱他， and still only loved him,
他对我不忠的，我丝毫不介意 it didn't much matter if he'd cheated on me
但是他却没有 But he hadn't
甚至更糟 It was worse
他很高兴能一个人呆着 He was thrilled to be alone
男人和女人之间的爱情， Love between men and women,
我再说一遍，就是一个不断的冲突 I'll say it again, is a devious conflict
就是的。 There
如果我比他晚回家，我就占了上风 If I get home after him, I've won
我知道的，这个我有优势 I know it. I'll have the edge
十块钱，我给你口交 A tenner, just to eat you
那是我的梦想 That's my dream
我知道，对于某些男人来说，我只是一个他想要喧嚣的阴道--- To know that for some guy, I'm just a pussy he wants to stuff
不需要煽情的废话 No sentimental bullshit
只需要原始的冲动 Just raw desire
就跟着人走吧， To be taken by a guy,
任他是谁呢！ anyone
一个无名小卒，一个流浪汉 A nobody, a bum
只需做，享受做的乐趣 with whom you wallow for the joy of wallowing,
伴随着耻辱，羞耻 for the dishonour, the shame
这就是一个女人的快乐所在 That's pleasure for a girl
-- 翻过来，让我看看你的屁股。-- 给我钱呢！ - Turn over. Show me your ass - Pay me!
你没得选，贱人! You've got no choice, bitch!
你喜欢我吗？嗯！ You like me?
你这荡妇! Slut!
婊子！母狗! Whore! Bitch!
我对你很好了! I reamed you good!
我才不是你想的那种人呢，混蛋！ I'm not ashamed, asshole!
是否你爱上了一个不爱你的男人， 你就企图用放纵来摧毁自己呢？！ Is nymphomania destroying yourself because you choose the man who doesn't love you?
我不想和男人睡觉 I don't want to sleep with men
我也想要一直敞开心扉。 可当你看到的只是一堆花花的生肉时--- 女人已死。 I want to be opened up all the way. When you can see that the mystique is nothing but raw meat, the woman is dead!
也许我真的很想见到开膛手杰克 Maybe I really want to meet Jack the Ripper
他也一定会把像我这样的女人开膛刨腹! He'd certainly dissect a woman like me!
我又在那里呆了一个小时 Once again I hung around for an hour
这样我就会比他晚回家 so I'd get home after him
证明女人比男人更有爱的能力 Proof that women are capable of greater love than men
更大的爱 Much greater love
他也在等我呢 He's waiting for me, too
当我比他晚回家时，就不那么容易了 When I get home after him, it's not as easy
这个小家伙很急躁 The little guy's edgy
-- 我刚到家， -- 我也是。 - I just got home - Me too
所以我明白了 So I see
我也是刚到家 But I just got home too
当然……这种垃圾电视你坚持不了一个小时的。 Sure... You wouldn't watch crap TV for an hour
"《恋爱事件》，讲了一个老男人痴迷年轻妓女的故事” "A Love Affair deals with an older man's obsession with a young prostitute"
这样他就不会再搞我了 So he won't screw me...
“也许是因为他受过的良好教育吧， "Maybe due to his education,
女人对他来说总是很陌生， "women always seemed alien to him
他更喜欢和朋友们在一起。” "He preferred the company of his friends
“女人是来自另一个世界的， "Women were from another world,
带着某种程度的优越……” "somehow superior..."
我的阴部肿胀潮湿，我能够坚持下去 My cunt is swollen, moist: I can hold out forever
他不可能这样打败我的 He won't beat me down this way
他想要个一个人的夜晚，我也会充分享用它 When he wants an evening without me, I make the most of it
我真是太累了 I get tied up
这都是他的错 It's his fault
我能主导你吗? Shall I dominate you?
或者你想把我绑起来吗？今天你选。 Want to tie me up? Today you choose
我什么都不想做 I don't want to do anything
那你喜欢被绑起来吗? You like being tied up?
可以，但不要是手肘 Yes, but not my elbows
上次那次，我的手麻木了快两个星期 Last time, my hands were numb for two weeks
一个月前，我的一只胳膊肘还有点不对劲的 A month ago, one elbow still felt weird
这不正常，你的血液循环不好 That's not normal. You've got bad circulation
有一天在戛纳，我接了格蕾丝·戴利 One day in Cannes, I picked up Grace Delly
如果我知道是她的，我就不敢了。 If I'd known it was her, I wouldn't have dared
但她喜欢我，约我在我的家见面 But she liked me and made a date to meet at my place
哦，她的戒指, She rings,
还有金发，无可挑剔的发型， blonde, impeccable hairdo,
她死命地咬我，真是狗一般的婊子! in a dog's tooth suit. A bitch for a hound dog!
我和她上了床，爱在午后流淌， I screw her, love in the afternoon,
她精神抖擞，心满意足地离开了--- she leaves in fine spirits
第二天我再见到她时，我和一个朋友在一起。 Next day I see her, I was with a friend
我告诉他，"我上了那个女人"。 I tell him, "I screwed that woman"
他说：“天哪！你上了格蕾丝·戴利？” He says, "You screwed Grace Delly?"
我只是茫然地看着他，我真不知道她。 I just looked at him. I didn't know
看到了吗？我既不帅也不富有 See? I'm not handsome or wealthy
也不迷人，但我上了她！ or even attractive, but I screwed her
后来，我走到她身边， Later, I go over to her,
我们喝了一杯，我问她， we have a drink, and I ask her:
“为什么？” "Why?"
“你为什么不告诉我你是格蕾丝·戴利？” "Why didn't you say you were Grace Delly?"
她回答说：“那你还会那样做吗？” She replied, "Would you have behaved like you did?"
我想我不会。 I guess not
你不会对格蕾丝·戴利做那样的事的。 You don't act like that with Grace Delly
你戴上手套! You wear kid gloves!
太可惜了！这很棒！ It's a pity! That was nice
等等…… Wait...
这个不会伤到你的。 This doesn't hurt
太可惜，没有两个。 Too bad, I don't have two
没事， It doesn't matter
我可以这样做 I'll do it this way
抬一下你的屁股 Raise your ass
我把你的裙子拉起来 I'll pull up your skirt
就这样的 Like that
我再把你的腿分开，好吗? I'll spread your legs, OK?
我想你肯定喜欢岔开腿的。 I think you like it when I spread your legs
等等哈 Wait
哦，我太喜欢了 I love it
这里--- There
喔！超棒。 That's nice
现在我把这个扣上 Now I'll put this on
等等…… Wait...
帮我一下! Help me!
可真美丽呀! That's beautiful!
你那样很可爱 You're lovely like that
你真的太漂亮了 You're very beautiful
现在我要绑住你的口了 Now I'll gag you
我太喜欢这捆绑游戏了，我开始喜欢上了罗伯特 I enjoyed it so much, I grew fond of Robert
把我绑起来而不把我绑住，这是他的仪式的秘密 Tying me up without tying me down, was the secret of his ritual
在我们的治疗之后，我真是再也没有沮丧过。我们玩得很开心 After our sessions I was never depressed. We giggled
我们出去了，吃了好多 We went out, ate too much
…那家伙一贫如洗， ...the guy was flat broke,
于是她对他说…… so she said to him...
你还要点鱼子酱吗? You want more caviar?
再多点鱼子酱? More caviar?
嗨，服务生！ Waiter, please!
再来点鱼子酱! More caviar!
还有伏特加! And vodka!
我喜欢喝酒 I love to drink
但我从不喝醉，或者他们所说的那种喝醉 But I never get drunk, or what they call drunk
再来点伏特加，好吗？ Can we have some more vodka?
你看起来很精神呢。NYou seem fine
你看到了你的朋友，我也看到我的女朋友 You see your pals. I see my girlfriends
我打赌你会说我们的坏话! I bet you badmouth us!
我们说你们的坏话，呵呵，是说呢，还是不说呢…… We badmouth you, we do, we don't...
帮个忙吧？ Help me?
好好碰我吧。 Touch me
我没这本事哟，你让他们继续挺着吧 I can't. You kept them on
如果这就是一切的… If that's all it takes...
那爱情真就是一个婊子 Love is a bitch
看看谁更有本事罢了 It's just a power trip
一个你为之忠诚的男人，他却不会上你 A guy you're faithful to, won't fuck you
你欺骗他吧，他就会毁了你 Cheat on him, and he screws you
他们不会猜想到你的欺骗 They don't guess you're cheating,
他们所有的感觉就是你将离开了 they sense you're getting away
我的手受伤了，做不了什么呢。 My hands are dead. I can't do a thing
那咋办？你在玩哪一出？ Now what? What are you playing at?
为什么你就看不出来我只有对你才这么做？！ Why can't you see I only do this with you?
我从没碰过别人的鸡巴 I've never touched anyone else's cock
那你为什么不放过我? Then why won't you leave me alone?
因为你什么都不做呀！ Because you do nothing
现在你是我了， Now you be me
你就是个女人 You be the woman
而我就是你的男人，我在操你 I'll be your guy, I'll screw you
你能相信吗? Can you believe it?
那个自私的混蛋就是这样让我怀孕的！ That's how that selfish bastard got me pregnant!
没有男人，甚至都没有他 Nobody came, not even him
他就用一滴精液，在我的身体里营造了一个圣女玛丽。 He pulled a Virgin Mary on me, with a drop of seminal fluid
张开双腿，放松。这儿…… Spread your legs. Relax. There...
宫颈闭合，好。子宫…… The neck is closed. Good. The uterus is...
八周了 It's been eight weeks
到你了 Your turn
我就这般成为了那帮稚嫩的实习生们的研究案例 That's how I became a case study for spotty interns
感觉好像砧板上的一块肉 A slab of meat
一旦你怀孕了，他们就可以肆无忌惮地让你张开你的大腿 Once you're pregnant, they spread your legs
然后，一个劲地窥视你的阴道 and peer all the way up your vagina
奇怪的是，我居然对此有一种苦涩的喜欢 Strangely I took a bitter liking to it
就像我和罗伯特彼此休战一样 As I'd made a truce with Robert
怀孕这段时间，没有人碰过我 while I was pregnant, nobody else touched me
我每月一次的访问医院是我唯一的性生活 My monthly visits were the only sex I had
但我在检查台上很不自在，也讨厌张开双腿 I'm uneasy on an exam table, I resent spreading my legs
这太让我心烦了 That's why it upsets me:
我有点像冰雪少女 I'm a bit of an ice-maiden
我开始明白为什么中国人喜欢用象牙做阳具来探测你的阴道了 （操！我咋没听说过这样的） I see why the Chinese used an ivory dildo to probe you
虽然这也很恶心 Though even that's distasteful
是的，色情电影也能保护你的性欲 Porn movies, too, protect your libido.
片中所映出的那些 You watch a surrogate image
如果生活中你不能忍受的， But what you can't tolerate in life,
那在那些画面中也不能容忍 you can't tolerate in images either
播出来的那些内容当然必须是妥协的，毕竟代表你的意愿。 An image is just as compromising, since it stands for you
很好 Very good
保罗是对的 Paul is right
女人阴部单独呈现时，你不可能爱上她的脸 You can't love a face when a cunt tags along
阴部和脸部不能相提并论 Cunts and faces don't mix
我幻想着在一个妓院， I fantasize about a brothel,
头颅和身体分开了 where heads are separated from bodies,
是被像断头台一样的机器切断 by a machine like a guillotine
但是在刀片落下前切断的 before the blade comes down
当然，没有刀片 Of course, there's no blade
我穿了一条丝质的红色裙子，裙子起伏着，沙沙作响 I wear a silky red skirt that billows up and rustles
还有那些让男人看了会硬起来的愚蠢服饰 And those silly trappings that give men a hard-on
这证明了“硬”并不意味着他们爱我们 It's proof a hard-on doesn't mean they love us
保罗说得对，女人有致命的缺点 Paul is right, being a woman has a fatal flaw
如果她对你很强硬，你就会想上她 If she gets you hard, you want to screw her
想和她上床只是想轻视她 Wanting to screw her is to despise her
男女之间是不可能相爱的 Love between men and women is impossible
你看不上的男人，你会想象他的粗鄙 Men you can't see, you imagine coarse and ape-like
阿齐兹，看我的鸡巴! Aziz, look at my cock!
好像粗鲁是所有人能期待的 As if crudeness is all one can expect
看到头部了 There we see the head
脊椎 That was the spine
股骨 The femur
想知道吗? Want to know what it is?
是个男孩 It's a boy
超棒呢 Fabulous
你想让我嫁给你? You want me to marry you?
是的 Yes
那天晚上，保罗多年来第一次和我做爱 That night, Paul made love to me for the first time in ages
也是最后一次 And for the last time
从那时起，我也就只是成了他的一个拖油瓶 From then on he dragged me around like a ball and chain,
这是他必须承担的责任吧 a duty he had to endure
我们每天晚上都出去 We went out every night
与他的妹妹，妹夫一起 with his sister and brother-in-law
现在我是他儿子的母亲了 Now that I was the mother of his son,
我已经见过他全家了 I'd met his whole family
你还好吗? You OK?
两个威士忌! Two whiskies!
-- 你还好吗？-- 挺好 - You OK? - Fine
再来一杯吗? Want another drink?
等会 Later
请不要又大吵大闹哈 Please don't make a scene
不会的 Don't worry
我想跳舞，所以我抓住了一个女孩 I felt like dancing, so I grabbed a girl
我差点吻了她，她确实挺性感 I almost kissed her, she was so hot for me
然后我又在当地把她抛开了 Then I dumped her where I picked her up
她都有点懵逼了 She never knew what happened
你可不能抱怨呢 You can't complain
我没有 I didn't
但你内心想吧 But you wanted to
请来一杯威士忌! A whisky, please!
你们俩不再相爱了吗? You two fallen out of love?
你们看起来像两个方块! You look like a couple of squares!
坐下来 Sit down
感觉累了吗? Feeling tired?
我很好 I'm fine
她是我妹妹，但我会告诉她的 She's my sister, but I'll tell her
男人喜欢挑战 A man likes a challenge
讨厌被人跟踪 He hates being followed around
他需要担心他的所爱会失去，所以会去追回来； He needs to fear he may lose her. Then he chases her
或者不行就追逐别人了 Or chases someone else
男人总是在追逐的，不是吗？！ A man's always chasing
你同意吗? You agree?
你和你的追逐可真无聊 You and your chasing's a bore
这个混蛋! The bastard!
他让我独自面对恐惧 He leaves me alone with the fear
我孩子马上就要出生了 that soon my vagina will open and spit out the baby
醒醒! Wake up!
我实在受够了你的醉酒! I'm sick of your boozing!
你这个懒虫！你这个蠢蛋！ You slob! You stupid tart!
我马上下来， Coming down
发生啥事了？ What's going on?
你会满意的 You'll like it
趴在桌子上，等宫缩过去。 Get on the table. Wait for the contraction to pass
深呼吸 Breathe deeply
呼吸，结束后，马上躺上去。 Breathe. Once it's over, get on the table
-- 孩子父亲不能留下，-- 让他留下。 - The father can't stay - Yes, he can!
我不能用麻醉吗? Don't I get an epidural?
太晚了，你孩子就要出生了 It's too late, your baby's being born
准备好了吗？我们要把孩子推出来。吸气！ Ready? We're going to push the baby out. Breathe in!
吸气！屏住呼吸，抓住栏杆 Breath in! Hold your breath, grab the bar
用力推！再来一次! Push hard! Again!
尽你所能。屏住呼吸，再来一次! As hard as you can. Hold your breath. Again!
生命的创造不可思议！ It's incredible to create life
吸气！ Breathe in!
屏住呼吸，用力 Hold your breath and push
继续！ Go on!
人们常说，一个女人只有做了母亲之后才能算是真正的女人。 诚不欺我也！ They say a woman isn't a woman until she's a mother. It's true
之前所有的都不重要了 Nothing that happened before really matters
献给 Christine Pascal ！！
我给我儿子取了他父亲的名字 I gave my son his father's name
你我灵魂同在， If someone up there's counting souls,
我们终获永生！ then we're even